you always say everything softly,
as if you're afraid your ears will bleed out
if you speak a little too loud
and you always do everything roughly,
as if scared your hands will fall out
if you're a little too gentle
and I'm lost amidst that contrast.
because I hate how roughly you twist my heart in your hands
until it becomes a form that no longer fits in my chest,
until it gets shaped into something I
no longer recognize or can live with,
until it gets to a state where there's no coming back from
but I love how softly you whisper to me while you do it.
my death certificate gets rewritten
every time you look at me
and every mother starts the sign of the cross
every time I come closer to you
except yours,
because she didn't love you, did she, tom?
she didn't care if you lived or died
well, when it comes to me, rest assured
close to death is when I feel most alive
and then I look at you and that's the way the wind talks
it murmurs to me in lullabies of tragedy while your fingers
rustle through my soul
and I want to know why.
I want to know why do you
raise your obsidian eyes to the sky every time someone speaks
and why do you bury them seven feet under every time
they try to reach for my cheeks
like that one time Abraxas came up to me to say hello
now we're all saying goodbye to him gathered around a tomb.
I lost count of the times, tom.
I lost count of the times you tried to meet God
in hopes you'd become better, greater than him
instead
you met the devil and became worst than him
worst than hell itself
and when you dragged me down with you
and we stopped at the gates of the underworld
I saw that even Hades was afraid of you
so tell me tom, what are you
when even the worst, most monstrous part of you
is afraid of you?
and what does that make of me, when not even the best,
most angelical part of me
is afraid of you?
JE LEEST
VANITAS ― Poetry
Poëzie𝑽𝑨𝑵𝑰𝑻𝑨𝑺 ❝ a symbolic work of art showing the transience of life, the futility of pleasure, and the certainty of death ❞ ━ in which she bleeds in words so he can make art out of her blood TOM RIDDLE | POETRY © endIes...