Iamren28

As time passed by, I realized that I slowly ran out of ideas and energy to move my hand again. Whether to write using a pen or by the keyboard. It's getting boring to me. Perhaps because I lost the motivation in real life too. My 8th grade syndrome vanished and so does the spark and imaginations my mind made. 
          	
          	Now, real life stories often come up to me like
          	“how am I gonna survive this and that?” 
          	“why is everything so hard?” 
          	“Why can't I do that?” 
          	“I’m smart but my english skills were just too dull and cumbersome.”
          	
          	Everything just felt exhausting. Lately, I've been trying to read a lot of books. Not to read the story but to enlighten and improve my writing skills and grammar. But, in the end, I just couldn't. Reading these old novels was tiring. I couldn't understand every paragraph since it's all written in an old writing style like those 90’s romance novels. Idk anymore. There was no comprehension.
          	
          	..... But I do want to write my stories. But after reading my drafts, I just realized that it's all very boring. It was disappointing to read my work. It was so bad that I mostly rely on AI to paraphrase my drafts to make it better or longer. I felt guilty doing that. I dunno anymore.
          	
          	My fictious imagination seemed to be disappearing as I stepped farther in this harsh reality. I wanted to write. I wanted to have my story an ending. Or maybe I really have no talent in writing? Beats me, I hope that spirit I had in those past years will come back. That motivation, that spark, that imagination, ......everything.
          	
          	Lord, please help me get back my to my writing.
          	

Junkguy33303

@Iamren28 Try to take walk outside, or maybe just stop writing for a few days or weeks and just get yourself a new hobby. Waiter's blocks sucks sometimes, but everything happens for a reason.
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SuyBerrypop

I just started reading your book and it’s really good. You’re probably having writers block and need to take a break and remember why yo love writing and what got you into it. I believe it’s important to take a break when you start to feel this emotions and think about what you like to do outside of reading and writing. Taking vacations is also important for your health so take your time and if you think writing is no longer for you then all the best on your next adventure. 
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X-0eyesriser0-X

@Iamren28 well maybe it becomes boring, you need something to push you to have the motivation to try making its ending or rewrite, anyways I just say I'll support your decision if you want to drop or discontinued, also your book was my first book the first time when I just come in at wattpad ≧∇≦
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vaxmomo

How do you do you're cover for the novel because mind I don't know how so I make my own please tell me

Iamren28

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@vaxmomo hello, sorry for a very, very late reply. I'm inactive on both of my socials cuz my school life and life was really hectic and as buzzy as a bee collecting some pollen from a withered flower. Now, answering your question, I make some covers purely from Canva! The free version by the way cuz I'm poor as fuck. And about the artworks, I stole it from Pinterest (that's why I put “I do not own the art“ on the cover). That's all, a bit of creativity, simplicity and of course— being thief => jk
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vaxmomo

@vaxmomo oh yeah I signed up in your face book I used my other name for this app
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Iamren28

As time passed by, I realized that I slowly ran out of ideas and energy to move my hand again. Whether to write using a pen or by the keyboard. It's getting boring to me. Perhaps because I lost the motivation in real life too. My 8th grade syndrome vanished and so does the spark and imaginations my mind made. 
          
          Now, real life stories often come up to me like
          “how am I gonna survive this and that?” 
          “why is everything so hard?” 
          “Why can't I do that?” 
          “I’m smart but my english skills were just too dull and cumbersome.”
          
          Everything just felt exhausting. Lately, I've been trying to read a lot of books. Not to read the story but to enlighten and improve my writing skills and grammar. But, in the end, I just couldn't. Reading these old novels was tiring. I couldn't understand every paragraph since it's all written in an old writing style like those 90’s romance novels. Idk anymore. There was no comprehension.
          
          ..... But I do want to write my stories. But after reading my drafts, I just realized that it's all very boring. It was disappointing to read my work. It was so bad that I mostly rely on AI to paraphrase my drafts to make it better or longer. I felt guilty doing that. I dunno anymore.
          
          My fictious imagination seemed to be disappearing as I stepped farther in this harsh reality. I wanted to write. I wanted to have my story an ending. Or maybe I really have no talent in writing? Beats me, I hope that spirit I had in those past years will come back. That motivation, that spark, that imagination, ......everything.
          
          Lord, please help me get back my to my writing.
          

Junkguy33303

@Iamren28 Try to take walk outside, or maybe just stop writing for a few days or weeks and just get yourself a new hobby. Waiter's blocks sucks sometimes, but everything happens for a reason.
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SuyBerrypop

I just started reading your book and it’s really good. You’re probably having writers block and need to take a break and remember why yo love writing and what got you into it. I believe it’s important to take a break when you start to feel this emotions and think about what you like to do outside of reading and writing. Taking vacations is also important for your health so take your time and if you think writing is no longer for you then all the best on your next adventure. 
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X-0eyesriser0-X

@Iamren28 well maybe it becomes boring, you need something to push you to have the motivation to try making its ending or rewrite, anyways I just say I'll support your decision if you want to drop or discontinued, also your book was my first book the first time when I just come in at wattpad ≧∇≦
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Iamren28

Due to proper credits, and because I don't own the covers of my novels, there's a possible chance that I'll be changing all the novel covers of my stories with Ai art (gah it's because I can't do art) The ai art was nice though but it's not better =( 
          
          It's still nice so yup. That's kinda tough

Iamren28

So I finally graduated from High School!!
          Graduated with High Honor and many more awards!! Hope I can finally make an update here!
          
          I'll try to finish the first season of <A Story without the villains is boring> then continue the others!! I pray to god that I will since it's been 3 years

Iamren28

Happy 1 year to me on wattpad♥
          I didn't realized I started using this platform rather than a note app last year of April where I was definitely bored.
          
          The reason why I started writing was because I couldn't get a nice anime or manga/manhwa that could literally fit into my taste so I made my own instead.
          
          Ugh, it's because anime mostly focused in romance with male lead getting in the mid of a harem, that's so cliché.
          
          I like overpowered character in an anime as long as there's no romance involved.

RenaEtiel

@Iamren28 Hello! I'm really happy to hear that and I hope you stay happy and excited.
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Iamren28

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No matter how I feign ignorance to my mother, I always just be an optimistic person. But that come to an end. 
          
          I realized that my mother is a horrible mother to her child. A mother who isn't ready to be a mother, or perhaps she just loath me.
          
          No matter how I think that she's my mother “I gotta respect her” but that's just a bullshit idea. I feel tired too.
          
          A horrible mother, a bitch. 
          
          She wished that she could have killed me when I was in her womb. I never asked to be born. Not in your womb.
          
          Do you think I like when you're my mother? I don't like it, and I never wished for it. 
          
          There was some times were I wished I was an orphan.
          
          Cause I like the way to have no mother than a mother who hates her own child.
          
          A two-faced bitch she was, I dunno.
          I'm crying right now.

Dark_Maniac24

@Iamren28 maybe we should plot a revenge on her. I also wish do that to mine.
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RenaEtiel

@Iamren28 In case your mother is really a narcissistic person.
            I don't know how old you are or what you've done in your life, but once you've stabilized financially and have a place to live and a job, you should cut contact with your mother and not say where you live or work.
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RenaEtiel

@Iamren28 From what you say, I think your mother is a narcissistic person.
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