• olive •

I’ve decided to give up forcing myself to write. I’m not in this fandom anymore, and it just seems useless to try and force myself to keep going. hope you understand and thank you for the amount of love and constructive criticism <3 

not dead, I promise. just not focused on wattpad anymore :) 

for those who actually read: NEW VANILLA CHAPTER IS OUT <3

special surprise soon <3

this motivation will be away soon, but…i have an idea 

i feel so bad for not uploading oh my-

i didn’t die! hello :] 
          i’m super sorry for the delay of updates (though i have nothing to update) but it’s okay. i genuinely hate all of my works recently and the hatred for it is only getting worse. anyway, i might not do anything about it, but if i do, then i’ll update you. 
          anyway 
          just here to say that i’m not dead :] 
          school just started again (which some would consider death)(which don’t— don’t die.) 

my wattpad is being so weird again. sorry for the disappearing chapters. it’s very random—

so here’s when I reveal the big question… 
          do I rewrite the entirety of the vanilla series?? make it actually have a plot, with reasonable characters and storyline? I’m doing much better and I feel like it will be more of a story than a venting message. 

I formally apologize for my terrible writing and unhealthy relationships I’ve put in my stories. I’ve personally read my older work and hate every single thing about it. The rushed writing, spelling errors, confusing dialogue, unhealthy coping mechanisms, uneducation, etc. 
          It’s actually terrible—
          no one’s brought it up, but even reading my older work myself makes me want to put this because it’s genuinely terrible. 
          It’s like we get over one plot point just to get to another one. It moves to quickly and there’s no actual storyline. It’s just angsty none sense that I put because I thought it was normal. and now that I’m out of these unhealthy relationships, I notice how messed up my coping mechanisms were- 
          so yeah :] 
          I genuinely hate it. 
          I’m sorry :]