"billie?"
"there's no way in hell you thought i wasn't gonna come for you," she chuckled.
"oh my god!" i exclaimed, running to her and jumping in her arms. "what the fuck!"
margie came in the room smiling. "oh how i love a happy family," she nodded with a grin.
we just laughed at her. "baby how are you here? you're supposed to be on your way to the next show," i asked b.
"i postponed the tour," she said.
i slightly gasped. "no," i put my hands over my mouth. "babe-"
"aht aht," she cut me off. "don't start. i rather spend every single day with you. i can tour later."
i poked my lip out and teared up. "oh my gosh i love you."
"i love you more," she kissed my lips.
"when did you decide to come?"
"the drive home from the airport last night," b chuckled. "i was like, there's no way i just let that happen."
"oh my god," marg and i laughed.
"i had a long talk with my team during the night. and it took some convincing but they know how much i love you," she nodded. "and they love you too so."
"aww, so how long are you going to be here?" i asked.
"until you're not," she looked down. i can tell she didn't wanna say it like that but i understand.
"so you're like- like gonna be out here forreal forreal?" i got excited.
"yes!" she mocked my excitement.
"ahhh!" i squealed. "yayyy!"
billie and margie continued to help me unpack my things and later in the day, margie went back to her home.
billie and i ordered take out and then just chilled in the bed.
"oh how i've missed your house," she smiled. "and hawaii alone."
"me too," i sighed.
she looked at me and furrowed her eyebrows. "you okay?"
"hm? yeah," i nodded my head with a grin.
"lei cmon," she said. "it's just me and you. you do not have to put on a fake smile to make others feel better."
i sighed. "i'm just," i started. "i'm so scared billie," my voice cracked.
"i know," her voice cracked as well. "i am too."
"i think it hits hard whenever i'm just sitting doing nothing," i wiped my tears. "that opens up space for all negative thoughts to consume me."
"yeah," she agreed, holding my hand.
"like how am i supposed to just be here and watch myself slow fade away?" i cried.
"you're not fading away," she shook her head. "don't say that."
"billie cmon let's face it," i suggested.
"no!" she rose her voice. "i don't wanna face it! why should i have to?! why do you have to leave me?" she began sobbing.
"i'm sorry!" i cried, pulling her into my grasp.
"cant you just stay?" she asked softly.
"i wish it were that easy," i rubbed her hair.
"i wish i could go with you," she said lowly.
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made for you | billie eilish
Fanfictionsequel to 'wish you were gay' - leilani and billie reunite. but with their current lovers in the way, will their affection for one another ever return?