So We Had an Affair: A Confessional

Rewind Rewind Rewind (Lin's POV)

I was sleeping peacefully with Y/N. I kept an arm on her all night. I didn't want the moment to end. I wish I could spend more time with her just like she wants. She would never say it, but I know she wants more. I feel someone shaking me and peek one eye open and see Y/N. God, she's breathtaking even in the morning. I'm barely paying attention to what she said.

"What?" I ask after yawning. I'd rather cuddle up more and get a few more minutes of sleep.

"Lin, it's morning." The look on her face is that of panic. She's so cute when she panics.

"We have work today! You need to go back to your room!" I finally sit up at her words. Shit. I forgot that we are here working.

"Right. Let me just brush first." I say through my grogginess. I don't want to get up, but I do it anyways. I grab my clothes from the floor as I enter the bathroom. I relieved myself then a thought occurred to me: Did we use protection? No, she's on the pill... Right?I washed my face then picked up my toothbrush to brush my teeth. Y/N got an extra toothbrush for me after arguing that no matter what we do or where our mouths go on each other, it's still gross to share a toothbrush. I didn't argue with her because it really didn't bug me either way. I just want to make her happy. I want all the people I love to be happy. Wait... Do I love Y/N? I love my V, Sebastian, and Toby. Does Y/N go on that list too? Sebastian... He's going to be so crushed when we tell him Y/N won't be babysitting anymore. How do I tell Van? Why did Y/N quit anyway?I rinsed my mouth then smiled in the mirror. I walked out of the bathroom and saw Y/N looking... Guilty? I walked over to her to hug her but was escorted to the door. She peeked outside.

"Are you sure I can't convince you to comeback?" I asked a final time.

"Come on, the day just started, please don't bring that up now..." She rolled her eyes.

"I'm still not sure why you left in the first place..." I tried to get her to let me in.

"Ask your wife." She said bitterly then opened the door for me to leave. I made my way to my room silently. Now that I think of it, V has been acting pretty suspicious. She never wanted to address Y/N herself. Whenever I asked her if she could guess why Y/N would have left the way she did, Vanessa would get quiet or refuse to talk about it. The one time she talked to Y/N she didn't even do it in my presence... What is going on here? When I got back to my room I noticed a couple of missed calls. One was from Daveed, another from Anthony, and the most recent from Vanessa. She had also sent a message asking me to try asking Y/N again because Sebastian was driving her absolutely crazy with his focused whining. I decide I would call her back after taping. I couldn't get out my head for most of practice. Does Vanessa have something to do with why Y/N quit? How could I not see this possibility before? Why am I just noticing her odd reactions? I felt bad because Y/N didn't seem able to get out of her mind either. Thankfully, practice was cut short. I rang Vanessa as soon as I got inside my room.

"Hello?" Vanessa sounded tired no doubt due to an early start to a long day.

"Hey, I missed your call. I turned in early last night." Not technically a lie.

"I was just letting you know we made it back safely."

"Sebastian?"

"A headache when he's awake."

"What are we going to do?"

"You should ask her again."

"Vanessa, she's not changing her mind. From what you have said and the way she treats me in public, the Lord himself would need to come down and tell her to babysit for us."

"Why is she being so difficult over a couple of words..." Vanessa mumbled.

"What?"

"Nothing." She quickly covered.

"Vanessa Miranda Nadal," my Puerto Rican accent comes out when I say her name, "I will only ask one time: What. Words." I heard Vanessa swallow on the other end of the phone.

"I am going to tell you something, but you need to promise me you won't get too angry."

"Vanessa," my voice barely a whisper, "What did you do?" Vanessa explained what happened the last time Y/N babysat for us which would ultimately be the last time she would babysit for us.

"That's basically why it all began..." She closed her story. I didn't even know how to respond. I wanted to cry. I wanted to scream. How could the love of my life, the mother of my child, my own heart hurt Y/N like that? Everything started to make sense. Keeping her distance, ignoring my calls, the night of the dinner, and even her inability to makes moves even after things actually started between us. She was thinking of Vanessa. No wonder she always put my family first. She was scared. I needed to go to her. I needed to talk to her.

"I have to leave."

"Lin, I told you not to get angry."

"I'm sorry, Vanessa, how am I supposed to feel? Hmm? Because you let some random insecurity get the better of you I have to pay the consequence! I'm thinking 'what could I have done to hurt this girl' meanwhile it's you! It was never me!" I raised my voice without realizing it. Vanessa sobbed lightly. I let out a heavy sigh. "Vanessa, just give me some time to breathe and sort out this information. Maybe I can figure something out."

"Okay... Are you mad at me?" I could hear all the sadness in her words.

"I'm pretty angry as to how all this happened but we'll figure it out."

"Okay."

"Vanessa?"

"Yes?"

"Apologizing to her might help or at least be a start." Our call ended, and I raced to Y/N's room. As I exited the elevator on her floor, I ran into Anthony. He looked a little downcast but looked me right in the eyes then smiled. There was a touch of mischief in his eyes as he nodded at me. I didn't focus on it as I rushed to Y/N's room.

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AUTHOR'S NOTE

Sorry this was such a long section! So much to cover and reveal! How do you guys feel about Vanessa finally telling Lin what happened? Thank you to all who support me with your time, attention, upvotes, and comments! You guys are literally the greatest!

What's next? Who knows? All aboard? Okay, Let's go!

~ G. E. M. <3