It's nothing new
My longing for you
Maybe, it's grief, but
either way, I wish it was through
It hasn't changed
I see your face
but it's not the same
Must you remain?
The times we shared
can't be compared
I wish they'd be true
Just like, I'm sure, you want me to
The way you haunt me
makes life feel bleak
like I'm being buried
but, I've never felt weak
I feel stronger than ever
and tired all the same
I feel light as a feather
Finally free to say, "I'm sane"
I wasn't saved, rescued, nor relieved
I had to fight, had to make you leave
I had to run, and I tried to scream
I had to tear myself apart to make them see
You will never feel like me
It's so tragic, it's almost poetic
but this isn't fiction, it isn't synthetic
This is my post-traumatic
reality
It's nothing new, can't drink away the pain
I'll never smoke enough to numb it
Can't drown it in the rain
Grieving my love for you, that you stole away
