I think what I want is closure, but
is that something that really exists?
I want this to get more exposure, but
the walls we put up persist
I don't know what to say, but
How could you betray my trust?
How could you take the love I had
and twist it into grotesque lust?
You were my entire world
Yet you were also your own
I wanted to lay foundation
and build the five of us a home
One where everyone is safe
and no one has to wonder
I would've had your back, but
you mistook my love for plunder
There wasn't a moment I'd have thought
To take you on so without immunity
When I invested, when I taught,
I hadn't seen the incongruity
My sorrow now, and my suffering then,
come from a place you're familiar with
The indefinite depths of your hell
that you definitely brought onto yourself
The worst is that you're stuck
You violently drown forever in your own fear
If only you had a heart or soul
I wouldn't have had to stay with you.. here
Here in this space of hostility
If only you hadn't known my drug
If only you hadn't brought me here
To be with you, in the blood
