YOONMIN : Beautiful encounter

Part 30

Yoongi: The diary

Day 1:

Jimin's in a coma.

His eyes are closed, limbs not moving and he doesn't go to school.

His mom's crying outside,

sweet motherly tears, the guilt because she couldn't help.

I'm okay.

I could help but I didn't.

He probably won't wake up ever again,

a sweet beautiful disease that will take it all.

but I'm okay ...

I'm okay.

and because I'm okay ...

I'm not okay.

Day 17:

His mom notice me outside his hospital room today.

She said he keeps repeating my name while he's asleep. He hasn't woke up yet.

She said I shouldn't come to the hospital anymore. It doesn't help.

I think I won't listen.

Day 29:

Jimin woke up today, I saw him going to the bathroom when I brought him flowers again.

His doctor said he doesn't remember anything.

He doesn't remember me.

As I disappeared from his memory I think I don't exist anymore. I'm gone.

I don't know if I want to come back.

Day 76:

I can't forget that kid, god, help me.

I remember the fragrance he left on my clothes that day,

in the lanes of my city,

in my memory.

Even in pieces

he's still the most beautiful person I've ever met.

Yet beautiful is a lazy and lousy way to describe him.

Love.

Maybe that's the right word to define him.

I've fallen in love with him.   I've broken him and loved every piece.

Day 369:

I saw him again today. He looks so happy ... maybe because he doesn't remember me.

His strength amazes me.

He's been forcing his smile for so long.

My love, you're so beautiful.

I hope one day you can see that.

Maybe I should listen to your mother now and stay away.

It will kill me but save you.