My Therian Journal

01/19/24

Good morning!

Had a hard time falling asleep again but not as bad, I don't remember dreams if I had anything

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Updates later!!

2:00pm

       I had this moth thing that I used to keep my stress levels down, and to ground myself when I panicked or got overstimulated, and I also figured with it to keep myself focused, but I lost it a month or two ago. I knew where i left it. I just wasn't able to check for it in time. Just yesterday my friend Claire saw a girl in the buss with the exact same moth thing attached to her bag, and for a second I was just in angry dog mode I just wanted to hunt her down and tear it off her bag, but I want to be nice about it too. Idk, it was 30 dollars that I paid for so I wanna get it back.

               4:00pm

            I had my first phantom+sensory shift today with my dog theriotype, I was in my science class and someone dumped a bunch of vinegar into a thing of baking soda without reading the instructions, it was so loud and it was an almost uncomfortable sound, and everything became super loud. My phantom ears don't stick up thankfully, they're gloopy so when I cover them it just looks like if having a headache 

             I also had the talons on my feet a lot of the day it was really annoying and a little painful to walk in my shoes. 

          I love that cargo vest  I have though because I had my phone in there for the entire day, none of the teachers noticed. 

          In my spainish class there was a character in our book called Jesús (heh-soos) and people kept calling the character Jesus, I found that really funny for no reason (agnostic btw) and then we had a talk about how names are a part of people's identity and you should pronounce names correctly if you can, then everyone purposely pronounced everyone's names wrong, but instead of using my deadname, the were actually calling me Jesse, and it's taken a long while for them to get used to calling me Jesse, so that made me happy

         I'm glad it's the weekend now because I can go out in the snow, which is the fluffy powdery kind of snow, which is my favorite and it's fun to do quads on snow.

            My friend Jude kept bugging me to give him my yu-gi-oh! Card's because I use them as bookmarks, so I told him that he had to teach me simple self defense other than running away and biting, then I would give them to me, so he gave me a crash course on punching people, so now I can now keep myself when I sneak out, so I can finally go to the nature preserve by my house at night to just run and play and do quadrobics.

          I hate being inside, I love the outside, I think I slept outside as a dog, and I don't get to be outside enough. I hate being cooped up. There are no forests near my home, but that doesn't matter because of the wide open fields at the preserve. I think I will try to sneak out, but when it's not as cold, I don't like wearing a coat and Denice it's like 20 Fahrenheit outside I will get frostbite :/

          Oh btw my discord is Hopingtherian, message me if you want me to join your pack or if you are looking for a pack :)