And now, to the topic I've been dreading for days, SEX
Its been weeks since we both declared our love for each other. There has been a lot of cuddling, hand holding, lip biting, just name it. But why do I feel so pressurized by the topic
"Babe, you're all in your head. Chill out" Sarah spoke as she dipped her hand to get more chips from the bowl
I exhaled
Fuck
With Carson it was really bad, it was all about sex and I don't want this to be the same. I LOVE Ava so much I don't want to ruin anything
Maybe Ava doesn't mind at all
"Are you scared to touch her?"
The question repeated in my head. I'm clearly not. Everything just feels different
"Sarah, Ava is the most important person in my life, I don't really want to mess things up"
"Awwn, that's sweet but I'm hurt, so is your Dad"
I rolled my eyes
"I'm not scared, it's just...I feel like if we make that step then it might be all about sex"
Sarah stared at me weirdly
"Wtf does that even mean?"
I shrug
"I'm not making sense even to myself"
Friday night was...
Let's go back to Friday night at Ava's place.
"What are you listening to" I asked as I joined Ava on her bed. It was Friday, so i figured I could hang around.
She took out one side of her earpiece
"Come listen" she said coolly
I adjusted myself so we were really close. I plugged the earpiece in
She tapped on replay
"I'm a mess and I'm still broken
But I'm finding my way back
And it feels like someone's stolen
All the light I ever had
Like the world disappeared
And I'm laying right here
While the silence is piercing
And it hurts to breathe
I don't have much but at least I still have me
I still have me...."
"Who's the singer"
"Demi lovato" she whispered
"You really need to be schooled, music wise. I can't believe you couldn't tell from the voice"
She chuckled
Our faces were touching and her lips dangerously close to mine
"Well, I have interest in other things"
"Like?" She asked
My eyes went to her lips, I removed the earpiece and adjusted my position giving us a little distance but still close enough
I shrug.
"School, college, my family" I named
She rolled her eyes
"That's basically almost everyone's interest"
"Yea, maybe"
She shaked her head
"You should at least have something you love other than all that"
I love you, does that counts?
ŞİMDİ OKUDUĞUN
TL TD
Romantizm"You know that I'm dying and you still want this?" I asked confused. She walked slowly to me, never taking her eyes off me. Like two piece of magnet coming together, I couldn't pull away. Resting her forehead on mine, she finally spoke "I love you"
