aroace rants

no dad, ✨no crushes✨

so my dad doesn't have a concept of people not having crushes

forgot how, but somehow we began talking bout them

and he asked me, if i'd ever been in love

obviously i denied

and he was very shook
and seemed kinda sad?

tbh, i'm not sure if he believes me

well afterwards, he began talking about his crushes when he was my age and somehow my mum joined and then told us about some french dudes she kissed when she was in france with an exchange programm in school (which i personally find kinda funny cause she literally grew up in france)

this ended up with me knowing too much about my parents' love lives and my dad repeatedly coming too close to me and asking if i'm sure, i've never had a crush (and saying things like "just tell me, i won't ask any questions"... i literally told him the truth but okay)

(at thid point this ⬇️ was playing in my head)

and i'm pretty sure (and afraid) that this will happen more often the older i get (and i can't really stop that) (sadly)

do i have to come out to him at some point?
probably

will i do it?
only if it gets too much which i hope, won't happen