S.A.D [ZaDr] - Invader ZiM Christmas AU

December 6th

Went to ZiM's again today. Skipped class and went straight there—probably could've called in sick, and I probably should when I'm done—ah, wait.

Okay, I've just emailed the skool. I should be good now.

Anyway, it was all fine since Gaz didn't know I wasn't at skool either probably; she usually rides with me, but she didn't today since apparently she slept over at someone else's place last night. And no notes from dad, so I'm not in trouble.

But do I ever get notes from dad?

I'm getting ahead of myself. Anyway,

ZiM NOTES:
-he was in the same spot
-though, he changed sweaters. I might get him a new comfier one.
-he still showed no signs of positive feelings, or motivation
-the door was still open.
-he still didn't fight back
-I don't think he's coming back to skool this month.

No important conversation was today that needs to be rewritten, but he did pour more feelings today. He also let me sit next to him without fight, which is pretty new. On top of that, he let me pick the media to turn on the TV. This is so much worse than I could ever think.

IMPORTANT POINTS:
-he's lost total interest in world domination. ??????????????
-he's lost total interest in killing me
-he's lost total interest
-the big SAD is hitting him hard.

God, I feel like I should do something. I know I wanted to help myself this year, but how can I when someone else is feeling much worse?
No, he's my enemy. I shouldn't!
But he's done trying to destroy Earth...
He's tried to kill me! On multiple accounts!
But I can't just leave him...
It's all the S.A.D just getting to me!!
But I can't just let him believe his dads control what he can and can't do.
...uh.
I have a point.

Just coming over to his house every day isn't going to be enough, though—that much I know. I'm gonna have to actually... how do I say this.

Act like a friend to him??

God, I can't! I don't care how pretty he is, he's evil! He may be like me, but I shouldn't project onto him!
...am I?
I'm not. I can see how different he's acting... I can tell that more than anyone. He really is in need of a good time, and Hell, that's what I'll give him.

Even if it hurts me.

DIB MEMBRANE MOOD LEVEL

MOTIVATION
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ENERGY
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POSITIVE EMOTION
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MAIN EMOTION
ASSURANCE

IRKEN ZiM MOOD LEVEL

MOTIVATION
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ENERGY
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POSITIVE EMOTION
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MAIN EMOTION
S.A.D