S.A.D [ZaDr] - Invader ZiM Christmas AU

December 14th

I f⬛️cked up i f⬛️⬛️ked up i fu◼️ked up i ⬛️⬛️⬛️⬛️ed up f⬛️ck f⬛️ck F⬛️⬛️K

So uh. I was late to ZiM's today.

Overslept.

By 4 hours.

And I was even later due to traffic of other seniors skipping classes.

I thought that once I got there, it'd all be fine; I'd just tell him that I overslept and traffic was bad...there's no lies there anyway.

Oh boy.

Oh boy indeed.

I just opened the door to find him on the ground, in the middle of the floor, having a full-blown panic attack. Somehow, just from me being a bit late, he panicked this much because he thought I was abandoning him.

I don't get it. But I should. And I should've thought about the fact that he might not be over the S.A.D feelings just yet. But honestly? It might be something more.

He ended up yelling at me, completely in tears. We got into an argument, when it was mostly him just screaming at me. I didn't know what to say. I apologized, giving my excuse, but it didn't seem to do anything. I ended up leaving.

I know I shouldn't have, but I needed to go to my car before I broke down in front of him. I don't want to make it any worse...but I might've anyway.

God, I am an idiot.

I care about ZiM. I do. I shouldn't have thought this would all be okay. And I shouldn't have thought bad feelings could be fixed so easily...I know that better than anyone.

I'm sorry ZiM.

...

Well, I better work on his present some more...maybe that'll make things better. But maybe after I nap. I don't know which I'll do first, I just want to sleep, and panic, and everything at once. Goodnight.

DIB MEMBRANE MOOD LEVEL

MOTIVATION
⬛️⬛️⬛️🔳⬜️⬜️⬜️⬜️⬜️⬜️
ENERGY
⬛️⬛️🔳⬜️⬜️⬜️⬜️⬜️⬜️⬜️
POSITIVE EMOTION
⬛️🔳⬜️⬜️⬜️⬜️⬜️⬜️⬜️⬜️
MAIN EMOTION
REGRET

IRKEN ZiM MOOD LEVEL

MOTIVATION
⬛️⬛️⬜️⬜️⬜️⬜️⬜️⬜️⬜️⬜️
ENERGY
⬛️🔳⬜️⬜️⬜️⬜️⬜️⬜️⬜️⬜️
POSITIVE EMOTION
⬜️⬜️⬜️⬜️⬜️⬜️⬜️⬜️⬜️⬜️
MAIN EMOTION
S.A.D