S.A.D [ZaDr] - Invader ZiM Christmas AU

December 15th

Despite bad brain sauce feelings, I went back to ZiM's today. Early. Because yeah, I should.

It was a bit bitter at first, but after talks and...some crying (I'll admit), he, uh. Hugged me. And I hugged back.
I hugged ZiM. And he hugged me.
God...this month. How many times have I said something like that..

What the hell is he doing..? It's gotta be some weird Irken tech; there's no way I'm actually...feeling things for this space monster.
He's a freak!
He's evil!
He's tried to kill me!
I've had this type of rant in this journal a million times!

...he's cute, actually.

Yeah. Okay. I said it. And I hate myself. How can I suddenly think this enemy of mine is somewhat attractive? It's so weird. It's a weird feeling. I don't like it. But it's nice? But it's ridiculous. I keep arguing with myself what the hell

I don't know why I keep bringing this kind of stuff up. The arguments. I'm really insane, huh?

Especially since I'm getting off track! Look, I'm almost done with ZiM's present, and that's all I'll say about that. Not much happened today that hasn't already happened this past week. We hung out, did some home stuff, took a drive, I argued with myself, etc.

I wonder what ZiM's thinking. Is he having self arguments, too? Probably, if I'm being honest... he's been alone for so long now, and has serious negative feelings. He probably freaks out like this even when it's not December. Maybe I'll stay helping him into next year.

Okay that's enough of this

I'm sorry to cut this short but

It's mood time

DIB MEMBRANE MOOD LEVEL

MOTIVATION
⬛️⬛️⬛️⬛️⬛️⬜️⬜️⬜️⬜️⬜️
ENERGY
⬛️⬛️⬛️⬛️⬜️⬜️⬜️⬜️⬜️⬜️
POSITIVE EMOTION
⬛️⬛️⬛️⬛️⬛️🔳⬜️⬜️⬜️⬜️
MAIN EMOTION
HONESTLY GAY PANIC

IRKEN ZiM MOOD LEVEL

MOTIVATION
⬛️⬛️🔳⬜️⬜️⬜️⬜️⬜️⬜️⬜️
ENERGY
⬛️⬛️⬛️⬛️⬜️⬜️⬜️⬜️⬜️⬜️
POSITIVE EMOTION
⬛️⬛️⬛️⬛️⬜️⬜️⬜️⬜️⬜️⬜️
MAIN EMOTION
CONTENT, FOR NOW