February 26, 2024
I've been struggling recently. And by recently I mean for the past two-ish months.
Its not external stuff like college or my family it's internal. It is affecting external stuff now though. I have no motivation to do anything, not my school work, not setting up my future, or trying to find friends, I don't do anything beyond ignoring the world through any means and pretending I'm ok. I'm in my head and I have no one to talk to about it. I thought about ending it the other day. But I love my dad to much for that. I just want him to be happy and I know that will definitely break his heart.
I really hate doing this though. I'm angry at myself then numb then I just don't care in a repeated cycle. Over and over all the time.
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F it this is my personal journal now
Teen FictionBasically my diary kinda U no like I no give a fuck *haha I realized I spelled journal wrong in the title had it as 'jurnal' wtf🤣 Side-side note: Also I have like 3 moods for all dis the "Fuck all of you and what you think", the "I am sad and de...
