Release

Anxiety

Just a glimpse of how anxiety affects a person, in this case me.

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It's eating away at me

I'm wasting away

because I'm being eaten alive

by this thing we call anxiety

Click, click, tap, tap

biting my nails in worry

the cuticles peeling until they bleed

I can taste blood from the inside of my cheek

I keep biting, it reminds me of something that's real

blood's real, it's the only thing that's real

fingers tapping

index, pinky, ring, thumb, then the middle

index, pinky, ring, thumb, then middle

indexpinkyringthumbmiddle

indexpinky ring thumbmiddle

index pinkyringthumbmiddle

indexpinkyring thumb middle

repetition, repetition

one, two, three

music

friends

books

calm me down, for a bit

but then it's back to the

nail biting

arm cutting

finger tapping

cheek biting

blood-drawing

repetitive OCD-type of days

then it all ends.

I'm safe when it all ends.

But.

Slowly.

It.

Begins.

Again.

Index.

Pinky.

Ring.

Thumb.

Middle.