The Mistress

LVIII

               *Matilda*

 🎵megan trainor ft john legend.. Am gonna love you

Life was spinning me in different directions, I think I learnt more lessons about life in this year than I did my whole life

I met an incredible man
He swept me off my feet
He gave me a new perspective about life
He showered me with gifts and comfort
He helped me realize the zeal in my ambitions
He encouraged me to reach for the stars even for a little while
He made me feel on top of the world
He showed me what the world has in store for me
And then he broke my heart
He abandoned me
He rejected my love and walked away from everything that we shared
He left a hole in my heart
He gave me sleepless night
Then I try to forget him,
But I couldn't.... And he had already left his mark
He knocked me out
His offspring was growing inside of me
And then he showed up again
Making me feel like he is a part of my life
And we are about to share a bond that will make us inseparable forever
Then he says he loves me
Which just makes things much more complicated
Because despite everything he did to me
I still love him
I never stopped loving him

After I found out that he has been staying in an hotel and was getting a divorce from his wife.

My brain starts to embrace hope
The maybe questions started popping in. It is hard to understand one's feelings atimes because couple of months ago I was so sure I hated him but now it like my emotions are heightened. And everything I feel is like double the way it use to be

Which is alot considering how hard it was for me to move on from before,  I might just not survive if he decides to walk away this time

  Speak of the devil!
I was still thinking about him when his car pulled over in front of the house. I was still on Nana's rocky chair, watching him get his sexy but outta the car.

Damn! I miss him so much
Even though he drops by everyday
I still miss him inside of me

"Hey pregnant lady.... How are you feeling today"

Hot asf
He sat on the working stool

"Stuffy.... What are you doing here by this time of the day"

"I finshed early, besides I have decided to take a break from work until the baby comes "

The baby of course
I am due anytime soon
And it scares the shit, outta me
I have even noticed my tommy downslide lately......
Every day I pray for one more day to get ready.... I'm just not ready
Do people ever gets ready for this things

"That's nice"
At least you'll be here all the time

"I got something for you "

"Really"

Oreos pls
He pulled out a sketchbook from his bag and my heart leaped
It my old sketchbook

"How do you still have this "
I opened the pages that reveals my designs

"It all still there.... In your condo"

"My condo"

Did he still keep the condo after all this while..... No way

"Like it or not, everything is still the way it is........ " I blinked twice
"If You want we can drive down there and see... "

"I don't know if that's a good idea"

Too many memories

"It's fine.... If you don't want to "

But I do.
I've got nothing to do here anyway
Maybe this is what I need to answer all the questions in my head