Michael and I were on our private flight to New York and I was not looking forward to their weather because it was January and I didn't feel like being cold honestly. I loved the cold Don't get me wrong because I'd rather be cold than hot but New York cold isn't enjoyable.
I was on my phone looking at a video Steelo placed on his Instagram story of the ultrasound of when Dream was a baby still in the womb. I just smiled and "liked" his story now seeing a pictures of people with their little ones and significant others. I immediately went out of Instagram and seen a text from Dani appear.
Dani🦕 :you down to be God mother for Baby #2👀?
She texted as I scrunched my brows looking at the text Crazy.
Me: Are you pregnant again?!
Dani🦕:No we were in talks of another baby after we get married
Me: Aww and yeah
Dani 🦕:you've been okay? I haven't heard from you since the party
Me:yeah I'll call you when I land
Dani🦕 : Okay
She texted as I just placed a AirPod in my ear beginning to listen to Beyoncé's self entitled album "Beyoncé" as it was on shuffle and "Flawless remix" started playing. I ate some of the sour punch straws Michael and I were sharing. I started playing a game as The song soon changed to "Blue" and I started to listen immediately wanting to turn it off. I didn't know what was going on but the song now made me sad and the thing is this used to be the cutest song on all of her albums to me. I wanted this song playing at my baby shower and everything and now it just seems like I couldn't even listen to it.
I just took my AirPod out of my ear kind of annoyed because there was nothing to do and I was starting to believe I was slowly getting into my feelings about seeing everyone having families and I knew right now wasn't the right time but I wanted it.
Michael ate another sour patch straw dusting his hands off as he finally looked up at me
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as I just looked out the window at literally nothing because it was night time. "you straight?" I heard him ask "yeah" I said not looking at him but continuing to look out of the window. "Babe" He started off as I looked at him. "Are you okay?" He asked in a more concerning tone. "Yeah I'm fine, I'm just ready to land" I lied with a small smile.
